Lying on my bed and thinking about stuff. Realise I'm gonna hit my big 3 Os sooner than I can anticipate. Kinda excited yet apprehensive at the same time. Gone will be the days of my sweet vehement twenties and the arrival of a dignified and collected older self. Life will start counting down instead of counting up as responsibilitie s of a wiser self pile up. Anxiety clouds my heart tonight but at the same time, I know I would love this future I am going to build. Alas, I'm getting prepared.