Never knew the heart could really hurt, literally. I fell sleep last night only to wake up suddenly in the middle of the night with the heart palpitating like a machine gun. It nearly stopped a beat as my eyes threw wide open like a fear has gripped me awake. I don't know how many times it happened.
Today I wake up and as I lay and think about him, my heart starts its work again. Bump bump bump bump.... Then it starts to ache as if something is grabbing hold of your heart and not letting go. My breathing gets deeper and quicker. I can feel panic taking over, like something is tearing my wits away from my body. It aches so bad...
Then I speak to the Lord, Lord, why did you give me something, only to ask me to put it away on the altar for you. Is this what you want? My heart is dying. Lord, is this what you want? My life feels like it's leaving me. Oh Lord!
Heartbreak is a wordless darkness that cannot be easily expressed nor understood...